仁善心

　　Mandy自从和老朋友们重新见面后，整个人陷入了一种迷幻状态，似乎她虽然在这个世界上好好地活着，但似乎有一半魂魄留在了某个遥远的，偏僻的，古早的，隔离的，陌生的，熟悉的时空里。
　　洛可嘉第一个察觉到她的迷离疑惑，似乎她总是在问，“我是谁”、“我为什么在这里”、“这是哪里”、“这些人都是哪来的”、“原来的我呢？”
　　走丢了……
　　她的每一个微笑都在说，“我好困惑”、“我错了吗”、“我怎么办”……
　　在孙先生拜访后第二天，Mandy摔了Nichole心爱的大熊猫勺子，第三天她忘了去接Oscar放学，第四天她忘了烧饭，那两天洛妈和洛老爹由热旺陪着去费城玩儿了。
　　洛可嘉忍无可忍，决定跟Mandy好好谈谈。
　　“Youarenotyourselfthesedays.”saidLock，lookingdirectlyintohereyes.
　　“Idon‘tquietfollowyou.”returnedMandy，turningthepagesinfrontofherratherrampantly.
　　“Youwantedtofindyourlostselfasateenager，didn‘tyou”Lockwasruthless.
　　“That‘ssountrue.”Mandywouldnotlookatherhusbandintheeye.
　　“Wannaatalk”lockretreatedalittlebitbuthisgroundswerefirmlyheld.
　　“Theyhaven‘tchangedmuchsincewelastsawoneanother.”atlastMandydecidedtospilloutallthatwaslingeringonhermind——bearingtheweightiswearisome.
　　“TheyWhomintheworlddoyoureferto，thosewhoarenotennabledtoloveoracquireafamily”Lockdemanded.
　　“Don‘tbesorude.”Mandywasfinallycheeringupalittlebit.
　　Locklaughed，“Ibetmostofthemwouldtradewhattheypossessforthelifeyouareliving，evenifthereisahandicappedmaninthepicture.”
　　Mandysmiledforthefirsttime，“Nonsense.Howdareyou.....”
　　Lockpickeduphismobile，“Minerva，howmanyphotosofthekidshavewegot”
　　TheAIpoppedupfromnowhereonthescreen，“Sinceyouaskedsir，thefamilyalbumhastakenupatleastthreequartersofthestorage，whichmeansthereareoveronethousandphotostotally，andthatseriouslylaggestheprocessingspeedofthemobile.That‘swhyIsuggestdeletinghalf......”
　　“Thanks，Minerva.That‘swhatIneedtolearnforthemoment.”LocknoddedtotheAI，asifshecouldsee.Actullyshedidnoticethat，shewavedbackhappilyandwasoff.
　　LocksaidtoMandyassincerelyaspossible，“Ibelievewhatyouhavealreadyownedweighsmuchmorethanwhatyouthoughthadlost.”
　　Mandylamented，“HowdoyouknowthisisthebestformeIcouldhaveledanotherlife.....”l
　　“Idon‘tthinkit‘stherightattitudeforlife.Itseemsyouwillalwaysberegrettingoveryoureachandeverychoiceordecision.”Therewasanedgetohisvoice，buthestayedcool，“Stopcomparingwithothers‘livesandstopmoaningformore.Thefishermanandhiswifeshouldhavebeencontentedwithwhattheyhavereceivedfromthegoldfishandthey‘dbetternotbegformorethantheydeserved.”
　　Mandyremarkedwithadangeroustone，“AreyoutellingmeIdon‘tdeservethebestoflife”
　　Locksensedsomething，“Don‘ttwistit.YouknowwhatImeant.Youwouldneverbeabletofigureoutwhatthebestiswhenyouweresixteen.”
　　Mandymurmuredasifshehadbeeninadream，“HowIwishtobesixteenagain，carefree.”
　　Lockcamenearertoher，andhuggedher，leavinghiswheelchairbehind，“Thepointis，whateverhappenstoyou，fromnowontosixtyorninety，youwillalwayshaveus.”
　　Mandyburstintotears，“Ihavenothingexceptyouandthekids.Ifeelcold.Thisworldlooksatmewithviciouseyes.”
　　“Youcanalwayscountonus，”Lockpromised，“Igiveyoumyword.There‘snopartingofusuntilonedies.Staypositiveandcherisheveryminute.”
　　MandyleanedagainstLock‘sshoulder，totallyforgettingheshouldnothavestoodupandsupportedherweight.“Iwon‘tfallforit.TheylookasifworriedformebutIguesstheyreallyenjoyedthemselvesseeingmealmostcrashed.”
　　shelookedatLockandwassuddenlystartled，“Iwasalmosttakenin.......Ishouldn‘thavetoldthemhowIbrokedown......Iwouldneverletthemreceivethewrongmessageasifmylifewereajoke.”
　　“Don‘toverrespond.”Locksaid，“Theyareyourfriends，andtheyshowedconcernsaboutourlife.Themorepatheticwelook，thefunnieritwouldbewhentheyknowwhatwe‘rereallylike.”
　　“Yes，someofthemdidtrytoruinmyself-esteemandnearlyconvincedmetopitymyself.Howcanonebesomean”
　　Locksuggested，“I‘vecomeupwithanidea.Whydon‘tweholdaparty”Hehesitated，“Doesanyofthemhaveafamily”
　　“No，noneofthemdo.Peopledon‘tgetmarriedthesedays，Iguesstheyareafraidtogivecommitments.”Mandyformedasmileasthoughshefeltsorryforherfriends.
　　“So，thatsettleseverything.”Locksmiledback，“Weinviteabunchofkids.”
　　“DoweknowotherkidsbesidesthoseinOscar‘skindergarten”Mandyasked.
　　“Oh，ofcoursewedo，”announcedLock，“Thereareplentyofkids，Asian，Latino，andblackinthechildren‘shospital.Thiswillbeafund-raisingpartyfordisabledchildren，andmeaswell.”Locksatbackintothewheelchairasquicklyashiskneesallowedtocarryhim，whichamusedMandylikehell.
　　“Sincetheyaresokind，suretheydon‘tminddonatingsomedollarsforthegoodcourse”Lockquestioned.
　　“That‘sreallyniceofyou.Allofmyfriendswouldbeverythankfuliftheyareofferedachancetoshowthattheyreallycareforthehandicapped.”Mandybitherlips，tryinghardnottolaugh.
　　“IsuddenlyrememberIhaveoneortwoacquaintancesonthepress.”Locksneered，“Theywoulddietoseemeonthemoveagain.”